so here is an update: I had a great weekend. Went to the zoo and played some amazing games of pitch! I had a ton of fun.
lately: i've been stressing/working on my paper. its going pretty well. I can't wait to have it finished though.
today: meet some cool people across the hall. They share some of my values about not drinking!
right now: i am really annoyed b/c my roommates decided to invite some people over and they decided to drink (ugh!)
random: so i watched the movie "What the Bleep" twice. It was kinda a weird, but interesting movie. Now its making me think...do i want to feel sorry for myself and develop an attitude where i always feel like a victim...or do i want to find joy in life? I think im gonna make a choice to find joy in life. I am slowly rewiring my brain (watch the movie and you will totally understand the network of neurons in your brain). I want to get rid of my "addiction". The movie talked about chemical addictions (you can be addicted to chemicals produced by the hypothalamus in your brain). I don't do drugs or anything like that, i think i am addicted to feeling lonely sometimes. I think that i have put myself in situations that give me an opportunity to feel lonely. How am i gonna change? First and foremost i'm gonna focus my life on God. I think that by making God my center everything will fall into place. I am also going to focus on how lucky I am. I have so much good going on that I have no need to focus on what isn't great about life.
That is all I have. Reply if you want to...if anyone is out there...TTYL!
Remember: Enjoy life because you only get to live it once! (and also because God loves you!)
Paul & I have a quote in our kitchen from Denis Waitley: Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude.
ReplyDeleteI thought of it when I read your post. There is also a difference between being alone and being lonely. Being lonely can be depressing. But being alone can mean some great awareness about yourself.